Adjustment Sucks

So let's be frank... Tact is not usually my strong suit. I am having a hard night. I've had a lot of exciting changes all happen in a short time. Some of you may not understand why I'm feeling overwhelmed by good things but this girl likes to be eased into change. I'm on overload.

We got a supervisor! I don't think she will replace Valerie but I'm super excited about her. She was genuine and loving. She starts in August! This is huge and an answer to prayer. We now just wait until she comes.

There is a lot to do. Fathered, an adoption/orphan care group at Hope, is in full force. This is awesome! We have our official reveal on June 10th. This is what I've prayed for since starting at Hope. But I can't seem to find the time to get the things done I need to for the launch. This is stressing me out immensely!

In addition to this Hope is doing a month long missions month with the kids! I am going to be sharing so I am trying to be diligent about preparing. But there are lots of obstacles.

A baby we are responsible for is continuing to struggle. Please be praying for him and the people caring for him.

But most of all I'm checked out. I'm Africa sick. I miss the kiddos. I miss the people. I miss my team. I miss the time with the Lord. I miss the rich faiths that challenged me. I miss the feeling that everything I was doing was serving the Lord. ( don't get me wrong I know I am serving the Lord here it's just different - and harder for me to see)

I want so desperately to go back and I'm trying to save money so I don't have to beg and borrow but I feel this month had been crazy expensive. My car has been in the shop twice in a week... ( for those of you that don't know I hate car problems! But I think God is trying to teach me something. Apparently something i really need to learn.) so I question is that God's way of saying I don't want you going back just yet or is it Satan making it more difficult.

So I'm asking you to pray. Pray for a few things:

1. Pray as I continue to adjust.

2. Pray for those around me that are gracious as I watch video after video of Africa while crying.

3. Pray for wisdom as in whether or not God is calling me to a December trip.